No 2

The letter with the committee's ranking (see 13 June and 24 January) arrived today. I was ranked no 2...

This is my note from January:
"Among other things, I am writing an application to this position:
http://melding.uib.no/doc/Ledige_stillinger/1167901095.html
...another one in the chain of positions I won't get to inhabit..."

I feel happy for the person who is no 1, I really do.

But I also feel a bit disappointed, and tired right now.